Kaha's World

                                          DEMONS We all have inner Demons it's how we cope with them that steers our life. I recently lost two close friends, they gave into to the Demons that controlled their lives and it makes me angry at them. I am so mad that they would take away our friendship, that they felt convinced I couldn't help get them passed whatever place they were in. This loss inside of a week is devastating and just pisses me off that I didn't see in time to help them. As I go forward with my treatment I see my Demon and I know it very well I'm going to fight by their example, they struggled long and hard... I will survive BUT damnit they still piss me off. Rod and Dan, you will live forever in my heart and mind, you bastards..... Aloha... kaha

                                          Mortality As warriors, we view    Mortality differently than civilians. I personally only think of dying abstractly something removed from my everyday life. I think also the older one is the better they are able to face and understand the possibility of death. My ability to cope with cancer is directly related to the fact I'm 70 years old been to two worlds fairs and a goat fuck so my mind is saying "Bring it". This is not to belittle the brave fight going on with my younger brothers and sisters. I'm talking about one's own mortality and how to cope with the possibility of death. Which brings me to my original thought, what about loved ones. How they react is essential to the overall well being of the family.  How do I get them through this period? I have the tendency to keep my game face on most of the time. The only thing I can do is keep reinsuring them as to the hopeful outcome. Just some thoughts, maybe some o

                                    Update for cancer Well, this has been a banner day (no pun intended) I now have a staff: a Nurse, a Surgeon, an Oncology Doc, a speech therapist, and a nutritionist. This all a very cool thing and makes me feel wanted. On the other hand, the dentist said I had to have some teeth removed BEFORE the radiation treatment. Four teeth and two hours later my lower lip feels like a bowling ball and I need to heal about two weeks before the radiation treatment. Ya!!! The lesson here is TAKE CARE OF YOUR TEETH AT ANY AGE...... The PET scan came back as all clear will post a picture when available, there were some interesting findings about clogged arteries and gallstones but will explain later. now I just going to lay down and let the swelling go down... Aloha... kaha

                                        Heartfelt Thanks My heart is overwhelmed by the outpouring of support for the Cancer that infects my body. I wanted to share this journey with everyone and by so doing create a dialogue, one that will not only help and support my plight but that of others that are facing the same thing or have been through the devastating effects of cancer. I have learned that several of my friends are going through the same condition as I find myself and their input has been extremely valuable. As we get into the treatment stage I will tell everyone what is going on. NEWS FLASH!!!!!! just got an appointment with Dr. Walker in RADEON (Radiation oncology) for the 9th ya!!!! will be leaving the Tucson area for Phenoix WD Anderson hospital in the morning. Thanks again all.... Aloha kaha...     

                               Squamous Cell Carcinoma Overview Squamous cell carcinoma of the skin is a common form of skin cancer that develops in the squamous cells that make up the middle and outer layer of the skin. Squamous cell carcinoma of the skin is usually not life-threatening, though it can be aggressive in some cases. Untreated, squamous cell carcinoma of the skin can grow large or spread to other parts of your body, causing severe complications. Most squamous cell carcinomas of the skin resulting from prolonged exposure to ultraviolet (UV) radiation, either from sunlight or from tanning beds or lamps. Avoiding UV light helps reduce your risk of squamous cell carcinoma of the skin and other forms of skin cancer. Squamous cells are found in many places in your body and squamous cell carcinoma can occur anywhere squamous cells are found. Squamous cell carcinoma of the skin refers to cancer that forms in the squamous cells found in the skin.

                                     I HAVE CANCER!  Part 1: So here's the story, while we were up in Idaho this summer I was having problems swallowing and a little soreness in my throat. I thought my condition was from all of the Forrest fires. when we left the area we figured it would go away. In Roswell new Mexico after seeing a specialist I was wrong. the biopsy confirmed "Squeamish cell carcinoma" on the back of my Tongue. So now what?... We immediately called MD Anderson up in Phoenix, AZ (thanks to the direction of a few friends) and are in the process of being admitted to one of their programs. Won't really know until they review the file and make the determination as to the treatment. On a good note MD Anderson has full RV hookup for free ya!. Now as we wait for the go ahead from the hospital I'm contemplating blogging about my experience in hope that sharing this journey will help my family and I deal with all of the trauma. I'm not use to